Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Sad Valerie Delivers the News

I had a life changing experience last week. As you well know, I've been unhappy with my lot in life. I've been devoting a good portion of my already-precious time to revising my resume and applying to jobs.

On Tuesday the 13th, I actually received a reply. Not just any reply (such as the email which read something like, "We found you qualified for the position but not among the most highly qualified candidates"). No, this reply said, "Your resume looks great." Following this amazing email, I had a phone interview in which I learned that I was the top candidate for the job, which I daresay was the job of my dreams: 10+ hours per week, mostly from home with a weekly meeting in Georgetown (a neighborhood of DC a little under an hour from my house), doing website management. On Sunday, however, I learned there was another candidate with "much experience in publishing" and who "is local" so could come into the office more days a week. On Tuesday, I received my formal rejection.

Devastation followed. Every time I thought about it, I burst into tears. You never know how much you hate your circumstances until you think you've found a way out of them. I was so close to being free from my draining schedule! So close to escaping from the manual labor that's bringing my future of arthritis and varicose veins closer every day. So close to having the time to actually build my freelance business rather than being crushed by it!

And now, well, it's back to reality. Guess the experience wasn't all that life-changing. I'll be doing what I always do, just a little more sadly. Guess I'll console myself by buying a new pair of gel insoles.

6 comments:

Amy Shipley said...

Oh, Valerie! I am so sorry. That sucks. I wonder what would have happened if you would have said you were willing to come in more days a week (even with the long commute)...

I recently applied for the job of my dreams... it sounded so awesome I daydreamed about it all the time and looked up everything there was to know about the town I would be living in. Alas, I didn't even get an interview.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there. Something will come your way. You have too much talent to be ignored forever. Someone else has to recognize that fact.

Dad

Julie said...

:( uggh that sucks.. but things will get better!! your dad is right!

Geoff said...

Sorry to hear this.

Yes, build your freelance business because being free leads to much more enjoyment.

Ray is so right. You are so freaking talented.

Julie said...

on a random note.. "future of varicose veins???" this implies you don't have any yet! lucky!!

Julie said...

on a random note.. "future of varicose veins???" this implies you don't have any yet! lucky!!